- Little brother: No we're not going there. They don't have Chinese food, they have Japanese coo-sane.
- Me: Coo-sane?
- Little brother: Yeah, that's what the sign says. It's some weird word like coo-sane or something. I don't know how to say it, it's some Japanese word.
- Me: ...You mean cuisine? That's not a Japanese word..
You’re twenty-one or twenty-nine and your heart’s been broken somewhere between four and twenty times—fetal-position-on-the-bathroom-floor broken, real-country-music broken—and you don’t know how you can ever be expected to go on like this for fifty more years and change.
You have scars. You’ve injured your body in ways that will never fully heal, and you realize you are slowly, incorrigibly sliding away from some physical perfection you imagine you must have possessed sometime in the distant past. Maybe when you were fourteen. Maybe the day you were born.
You’ve gone on and off your medication and the bottle. You’ve had your first marriage and maybe your first divorce, or maybe you’ve always broken things off or been broken off. You’ve fucked and you’ve made love. You’re pretty sure you know the difference now.
You’ve thought of suicide in a post-adolescent way at least once. Practically. Stoically. Without any late-night phone calls. Just sober in a dimly lit bedroom, weighing cons and pros.”
watching the anime so intensely that I keep forgetting I need to blink.
My eyes are drying out but I can’t stop.
I am 100% done with skype right now. The program pops up so I can log in, but once it “logs in” it disappears and never re-appears, and the little icon in the task tray shows up but it says I am not signed in, and I can’t right click or double click it or anything and I’m tired of fighting with it.
also I’m frustrated with skype. Apparently it stopped responding at some point in time (I rarely ever shut my computer down, so it never gets to restart if it has issues). I noticed today that it was not responding, so I tried to close it to no avail. Then I restarted my computer and it’s still messed up so I’m reinstalling it now.
I feel like I’ve had to deal with abusive people my entire life and I’m so sick of it.